My employer and I have just come to the conclusion that going forward with the arrangement we have now is not working. And the alternatives aren't all that palatable to either of us. So, as they say, this is it.
What now? Good question. Here's what I have on tap so far:
It's 4 o'clock in the afternoon, and I've got the wine and tissues at the ready. Yes, I am heeding the advice of two separate friends and proceeding to cry. And drink. And cry some more.
It's 4 o'clock in the afternoon, and I've got the wine and tissues at the ready. Yes, I am heeding the advice of two separate friends and proceeding to cry. And drink. And cry some more.My mom is on her way over, Kellan is with Mike's parents, and Mike is swamped at work. Hey, somebody's got to earn the bread around here.
That said, I'm not exactly done with my job at this moment. There is going to be what could be a long and painful goodbye. Or it could be a long and happy goodbye. Who knows. All I know is, it's time to start pondering a new beginning.
Thoughts? Advice? Warnings about what NOT to do? I'd love to hear any and all.
I'm here all night, folks....wine and tissues at the ready.
My advice is to write, write, and do more writing. You are truly talented in this area - I know not only from reading your blog, but also working with you on the BHS newspaper! Perhaps you could do this with blogging or creating a professional website on matters near and dear to your heart, or even freelance writing. You are talented - I know you will succeed in whatever you choose to do. Enjoy this time with Kellan. I believe things happen for a reason - as cliche as that sounds! Good luck I will be thinking of you. Enjoy the wine.
ReplyDeleteThe universe has spoken. You are a blessed woman. Something wonderful will open up for you, something that will afford you the freedom you desire. There is a time and a season for everything, and you will have time to go back to the work you love if you want, or your life may lead you into a new and exciting path. Just know that you are loved, and someone's looking out for you, sister. Can I congratulate you among your tears? Kellan will only be this little once. Take advantage of every moment. Love you.
ReplyDeleteThey say the world works in crazy amazing ways and once the pain of this heals, the world will seem pretty darn clear! But, I do believe it's part of the healing process to mour and be sad. And if this involves wine and tears (and chocolate - always helps me) then just let it happen! You are a very talented and I know something fabulous will come your way!
ReplyDeleteI'm hear for whatever you need! Much love,
Meg
I've been thinking more about you this morning. When the opportunity for me to stay home with my kids finally came, I felt betrayed by my employer. We had come to an impass, and we couldn't make our arrangement work any more without compromising my family. I had been praying for this opportunity to come to me, and then when it did, I felt hurt. Mourn the loss, but don't hold onto it. Accept the gift, it will make your final time there more joyful.
ReplyDeleteKLF is a very wise friend. I felt EXACTLY the same way. So broken and frustrated. So lost and hurt.
ReplyDeleteLet it come. Let it go.
Let's schedule a playdate to celebrate your new freedom!! It can include wine. And tissues.
(all of the comments are wise...I just identified so specifically with the betrayal thing)
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